Hello dear Tarot-ists!
We’re sorry Tarot Tuesday is a bit late tonight. As would have it, the cards will be read when they’re ready to be read.
Tonight we have a special treat as we’ve injected a little (well 18 months worth) of testosterone into this spread we call the playshop. Please, enjoy this guest post from one of our favorite masculine humanicorns.
18 months of testosterone injections arranged and inspired by the death card in a tarot deck.
The 13th card of the major arcana is the death card. It is a card of transformation and rebirth. Of clearing space and new beginnings. A card holding both masculine and feminine, death asks us to make good use of what is now past, to carry those stories with us.
The 12 empty bottles and the one still in use is 18 months of hormone replacement for a trans man. Gathering up the bottles is a sort of meditation. It’s a breath while standing at a precipice, overlooking a future of permanent male passing. What will he do with the experience and understanding from the past? What will he carry with him from his past life into the next?
I often hear stories of families in transition – Parents, in particular talk about grieving the loss of their son or daughter in order to be able to accept their “newly” gendered child. Anything that allows a parent to sit with their child in presence and love, including this sentiment, is something one can find gratitude in, but this has always challenged me. Who we once were will always inform who we are to become. Every moment of every day will die and pass, and each of these moments are threads woven into the fabric of who we are to be.
The death card is a reminder that energy cannot be created or destroyed, that we take with us what seems to be lost. All is not lost. We build our future from the structure of the past. Your structure has been built. The death card clears away what is not to serve you in your current venture. See the space. Weave your tapestry.